I’ve been projecting attitudes and characteristics in people, I never realized that before. This attitude to never actually find out what somebody thinks, it was because I was afraid of what I thought the answer would be, that’s all gone now- yeah, it’s all gone! I feel so overjoyed, it’s such a relief. I’ve been fighting through this for a very long time. I was maintaining my scenario of an awful environment for so long. So many dots are connecting, all these people-pleasing feelings, ideas and attitudes vanishing! I’ve been putting so much effort, using so much energy to maintain this game. I feel like I can rest now. This is quite profound. This makes a lot of difference, I’ve been living in this vision of the world so long, it was my reality! This is a big one!
TD, July 2026