I felt anger at myself for allowing someone else to make me doubt myself. Now that identity is flying out and away from me, and it’s whole world along with it,… It’s gone! It’s the most unusual feeling, nothing! Blank, the racing of my mind has totally stopped, all the overthinking. “Calm” or “peace” doesn’t begin to describe it. No stories going on, just a joy! Interesting! All the confusion, even my lower back pain, gone! I just feel settled, just here, I can have this!
KL, October 2025