“I am totally and forever changed as of this day”

I am totally and forever changed as of this day - sun raysDexter the magnificent!

Wow! I mean Wow! This is the biggest thing I have ever encountered! I hit the root of so many things that have been plaguing me for so long. The reason I walk away from so many things. The reason I would allow myself to be confused, or not look at things fully, the reason I’ve kept everyone at arm’s length. The fear I kept in myself of doing something wrong, and doing the very things I wish not to!

The fear I kept myself in. Fear of situations. I felt I had to make myself fear things or I would over react. I didn’t want to see the whole picture because I was concerned it would make me take a course of action I saw to be foul and evil. I didn’t want to look at it because I was afraid it would make me conclude the only course of action was annihilation, and convince me to take that course of action. I question my abilities, I put in what I thought to be safeguards to prevent myself from achieving-I believed I would lose myself in conquest, and I wanted no part of it. I would even consider it.

So I hid in sleep, I hid in booze, I hid in seclusion and I buried myself in, regret, self loathing and stripped away my belief in myself, allowed myself to be out of control, to make mistakes  and became a loner, a wanderer giving up far to often at far to many things.

There is not much I have not walked away from. There has not been many days I have not wondered what I am going to screw up next or lived with the consequences of what I did to create a bad situation.

That and so much more I am free of, and now I can’t wait to see what tomorrow brings!

I am totally and forever changed as of this day.

Best session ever!

– Kevin Hale, October 16, 2016

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