From my client KG, this past week:
“With this processing I have learned so much about myself. I always felt upset, angry or hurt but I never knew I actually felt this way. This led to many upsets and overreactions. Now I’m able to experience life’s stressors without getting upset or overreacting. Life seems brighter, happy things feel happier. Stressors feel milder and manageable.
Even the attitudes of the people around me are more positive. My relationships have become more positive, I’VE become more positive! I often felt burdened by life. Now I feel happy to embrace all life has to offer.
Instead of reacting from emotion, now I can think, and now all the sensations and emotions, are experienceable, even the unpleasant feelings-now I’ve got a really great state of being!”
KG, March 2015
Personality Image Processing is a technique I recently evolved to strip away the filters that encumber people in a relationship and get in the way of truly appreciating and experiencing each other. KG came to me to get some help to clean up the issues in an ongoing unstable relationship:
“Personality Image Processing has allowed me to experience my boyfriend’s actions and understand why he has done them. Once I understood I was no longer angry. I was even able to empathize with him. Processing identities we have assigned and imposed on each other and on ourselves has shown me my true self and his, and enabled me to understand his perceptions of me, and of himself. I love this process!”
KG, February 2015
Happy holidays, everyone!
A few of my clients have seen fit to share with me a summation of the changes they’ve experienced through their processing over the past year. EC had last been in session with me several months ago, and wanted to share his observations from that perspective:
Just wanted to say thank you again for the help you gave me. Thanks for taking the trouble and the time to care for me and use your expert skills to dissipate the charge. I’ve held my gains and I feel more like life is a “glass half-full” rather than a “glass half-empty.” My physical symptoms have improved, but surprisingly my “spiritual symptoms” have improved even more. I find it easier to apply, or just be, the “What Is Greatness” writeup. When I read LRH these days, I get more out of it using your points of view, points of emphasis and your experiences, as well as my own. I feel people like you and I are the only ones really duplicating and applying LRH, and even taking it to the next level.
Anyway, I hope you and Marina have a great Xmas, and are preparing yourself for a great 2015! I know your practice has increased this year, and I suspect even more newbies and ex-churchies will be finding their way to you. I know you’ll be ready for them and they’ll be keyed-out knowing they’re finally going to be duplicated and get some real help. Keep up the excellent work!
Best wishes, EC”
I like to think that my admiration for your auditing skill – and for you personally – is self-evident. But every so often it’s important to say so out loud. Especially when I’ve gotten to the point where auditing has become miracles-as-usual.
This morning, however, I realized there was something more to it. I contemplated the many remarkable changes I have experienced over the past year. In doing so, I realized that the processes that had the biggest impact on me were the ones you personally developed or enhanced. “Auditor” isn’t the right word for what you do, anymore, though I don’t know what the right term should be.
While there’s plenty of good stuff in the standard Scientology processes, the best results (for me at least) have come from the tech you fine-tuned, such as shock handling, personality image processing, and the polished service-fac process.
That’s not to disparage the tech we both started with – not in the least! It is as precious as ever. But it’s as though you took rhythm-and-blues and transformed it into rock and roll. The roots are visible to anyone who knows music, and it comes from the same place… but rock and roll is so much more accessible, and easy to sing along with, and its lyrics extend far beyond the subjects the blues take on.
There’s a difference between a computer programmer and a software architect, after all. The former uses tools and processes that others created – sometimes brilliantly. But a software architect designs an entire system in his head, and sees how to solve a problem in a new way. Or perhaps the analogy should be that someone can play a guitar brilliantly by following the notes someone else wrote – but never create a new song herself.
In Scientology, we don’t have a word to describe that “creator” role – but you absolutely have achieved the distinction. And boy oh boy am I glad you did.
P.S. Yeah, I never write success stories for publication. But you can use this one if you like. ☺
The focus of my recent sessions with you has been to handle the unconscious replication of an identity that has been affecting all aspects of my life, particularly my relationships. I was able to realise that this identity was self envisioned under the guise of keeping me safe. With your guidance, I permeated this identity at the point I originally created it. As I did this, I watched the identify dissolve until there was only a residue of the energy signature remaining. Had I been doing this alone, I would have stopped at this point, believing it would continue to unfold to completion. You encouraged me to keep permeating. Holding this focus, I observed the energy signature shear off into gold particles and beams of gold light and come into my body.Just allowing it to happen, I noticed my heart expand and turn gold. As this continued my awareness expanded effortlessly. There were no edges to my awareness. I felt very serene and joyful, connected to everything, everywhere. In that moment I connected to my core serenity. Very beautiful 🙂 I realised that this presence is always there, always available. Separation is an illusion. It also takes a lot of effort to hold separation and isn’t much fun! Actually it’s boring.
Thank you for your loving presence, wisdom and delicious sense of humour. I deeply appreciate the transformation that has been happening and am so enjoying connecting with my core serenity. I am now playing a bigger game of expanded awareness.
I’d like for you to publish my Wins from Power Processing and I want to acknowledge your skills as an Auditor. I prefer Power Processing to most other Auditing I’ve tried in the past. This is positive gain Auditing at its best. The sad thing is I never got to experience this kind of top quality processing when in the freezone. Thankfully I never was in the the Scn church. This kind of Auditing has helped me progress so so far as a being in such a short time. What more can i ask for as a PC. I’m now Happy. I’m able to cruise now. Apart from just keeping my ruds in, no other action needed.
Dexter is amazing with his ability to parallel the mind. I feel fully understood and duplicated. I as a Thetan needed such a powerful Auditor as Dexter to help me Ascend higher and higher. I always feel safe in his hands. This is why I return to him, again and again. I know he will know what’s needed to help me free myself further. I just know. Please all of you out there try Power Processing from Dexter. I trust my own Knowingness and found Dexter as an Auditor. I’ve asked Dexter to train me as an Auditor. I will duplicate his abilities as an Auditor. I too want to deliver Power Processes to others.
“I’ve never experienced a piece of self-knowledge, or self-certainty, that affected my case so much.”
Lately I’m on a roll with meaningful advances in processing procedures. Minutes ago, this success story landed in my inbox, from a current client in relation to running my newly revised version of the Attitude Dismantling Procedure (advanced service facsimile processing):
“Just some background information; I’ve had a lot of auditing and rundowns within the church, including two Ls. I did not achieve anything close to the promoted EPs of these rundowns. I felt like a fraud receiving my L11 certificate in the Flag auditorium. I spent thousands upon thousands of dollars for this “advanced tech” and only ended up with somatics (some of them quite vicious), a lowered tone level and a depleted bank account. After witnessing and experiencing constant violations of standard tech and policy, even at the Mecca of Technical Perfection, I felt there was no hope for Mankind anymore, let alone for my case. Later on, I had become very sick, most probably as a result of unflat actions within my auditing programs, and more items had become unflat the more the auditors and C/Ss tried to flatten them. There was no positive gain on my case because of this, but there definitely was a positive gain to the church’s coffers and what they laughably call “production” stats.
I was quite literally at death’s door when I found Dex. After receiving a very laudatory recommendation that I see him, and watching several of his internet videos, I felt that his beingness was one I could trust, even with my immortality. So I started auditing with Dex and I’ve had several life-changing wins after several Power sessions, Identity Processes, Shock Handlings and other processes that aren’t “standard” church tech. My most powerful sessions have been with Dex, not with the church nor their much-vaunted Class XII auditors.
Now, I’m very very happy to report that I finally got my L11 win! However, it wasn’t because Dex delivered L11 to me, but because he delivered the Attitude Dismantling Procedure to me. L11 was intended to help a being get rid of ridges (amongst other things), but no auditing thus far has as-ised the ridges I had to the extent that the ADP has. People and situations that I used to ridge at, I don’t ridge at anymore. And since I’m not ridging, it is now effortless to be there and communicate. Actually, both activities, being and communicating, are much more fun. My confront is much more relaxed and natural, my originations are more high-toned, my control is much higher, and a lot of reactivity is gone. A LOT. It’s so noticeable it’s ridiculous. My comm levels and affinity levels are the highest they’ve ever been. And I probably had the biggest cognition of my auditing career with Dex in my last session. It was simple, yet extremely powerful. This was the best result I’ve obtained thus far from a cognition affecting my case. In the church, you can have cog after cog after (meaningless) cog, and because of church duress, you can invent cog after cog after cog (anything to get through the session, right?). [As far as I’m concerned, the only cog worth having while in the church is that you need to leave it.] But my recent cog with Dex wasn’t just a mere realization; it actually unlocked a ton of case gain. I’ve never experienced a piece of self-knowledge, or self-certainty, that affected my case so much.
Thus, I’ve had an extremely large ability gain. One can become “more powerful” (as the church says) when you get rid of your stops, when you get rid of your ridges. With my recent gains due to Dex’ auditing, I can see that I’ve indeed become more powerful, and it’s only because I’ve become more kind. In my book, kindness is power, and I feel I’ve achieved this long-sought state due to Dex’ research, his experience, and yes, his kindness.
And Dex and I aren’t even done with the ADP!! I’m looking forward to more great results!
John Brownlee has had a long Scientology-related history, including having audited between 10,000 and 12,000 hours “in the chair” as an Expanded Dianetics Specialist between 1972 and 1982. Between then and now, John experienced related modalities of processing, such as Alan Walter’s Knowledgism.
Not long ago, John came onboard as a client of mine, for the dual purposes of “handling his case” to satisfy his own spiritual needs and to prepare himself to get back into the game of processing others (remember his name, if it’s new to you, he’s going to be very effective, and I can’t process everyone all by myself! ☺)
Here is what John would like to share so far:
Thanks to you, I am one of the very few people who can say they finally got handled what they came into Scientology to get handled (!) And in rather spectacular fashion, too.
Of course you were there to witness this, so this is not news to you, but in writing up my wins it occurred to me that others might benefit from hearing my account, especially if they might be considering starting processing themselves.
I am not saying that my case is typical, that others would experience the same thing, but rather, wonderful things are indeed possible in processing.
As you know, I am not a stranger to processing and many other forms of experimentation. One would think that this latest result should have happened far sooner, but it didn’t. The area got touched on for the first time when I did Alan Walter’s training, but I was a trainee rather than a client and didn’t pursue things further back then.
Before contacting you, life was beating me up pretty badly. Despite that, when you asked me what it was I wanted to get handled, I truly could not come up with a definite answer to the question. I just couldn’t. I knew I was suffering but that suffering was so much a part of me, and my existence, I couldn’t name or define it.
Indeed, I believe that was one of the first things we took up handling- the feeling or attitude “I can’t get it”. And things progressed from there.
This is where your approach is so different from the “standard tech” of Scientology. You take up what the client has their attention on. Funny thing is, Ron says too that the idea of processing is to parallel the PC’s mind-to handle what they have their attention on. He says that if you do this, the PC will be wildly interested and will run like a dream. But we know that this simply is not done in the church.
Whatever, I can tell you Ron was right. We did exactly what he suggested and things ran great!
So…. here’s my story as best as I can recall it now:
(a lot of what you did was ask for moods, or sensations, etc connected with items or areas that would come up and I can’t remember precisely all the items we ran, but certainly salient or pivotal ones. Some of those I will relate here.)
For instance, a feeling of “death” came up .. Running that (or an item connected with it), I found myself going into a drowsy state and realized I must be encountering a past death-which one I didn’t know. At first, I felt it must be recent, and then later concluded that, that it was, in fact, at the end of my last lifetime.
Thereafter, in session, the same area would keep on coming up.
I would have amazing realizations about it, about events related to it, the people involved, locations, details, etc. At one point I suddenly realized that it felt like I was harbouring a secret shame, a family secret, but as to what that might be, I had not a clue. Still, it was a cognition, and as with so many others, I would state the realization, come up to present and, when the win was a good one, we would end off until the next session.
Ron Hubbard talks about children often being stuck in a recent death. In my case, though largely unknown to me, I spent the better part of my life triggered into exactly that. For the first time, we were examining it, digging things out of it. I was learning more and more about what had happened.
I began to see how so much of who I have been being this lifetime might have come directly out of my experience then. And it was an horrific one. Extremely traumatic, involving family members, some of whom I knew again this life-a perfect storm in terms of triggers
Of course, a skeptic (myself included) could say that this is all make-believe, that this could all be the result of an overactive imagination. Through my own experience in the church, for instance, I concluded that the general practice of writing success stories, attesting, having to get F/Ns, etc, created a culture where PCs tended to manufacture good indicators. And with the overrunning of Dianetics, especially, incidents became unreal, constantly changing, sounding more and more bizarre. Many wins sounded hollow; quite frankly, people generally did not appear to be doing any better in the real world.
In this round of processing, therefore, I was determined not to make this mistake. I wanted confirmation that my wins were real, not just wishful thinking.
What happened next, blew me away.
You asked me if there was a shock, and I immediately teared up, signaling to me that this was indeed the case. But when you told me to “return to the moment of shock” it was like you had thrown a switch and I found myself suddenly in full-blown revivification! My assailant was attacking me, overwhelming me, and I heard myself mentally shouting, over and over, in horror and disbelief, “WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS??!!. WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS?”
I was a crying, blubbering mess. And it took me a long time to finally come out of that.
But I did. I had a realization about what had happened, mopped up, we finished the session.
But next session, the same thing would happen again. You’d say “return to the moment of shock” and I would. Right back into that horror and shock and chaos, the whole event more real than anything in my room.
And again and again. Each session the same or similar, each time discovering more and more, but each time feeling that the grief and sadness would never end.
Of course, I would come out of that each time, feeling better for having learned more, but each time knowing that there was yet more to confront.
You had me describe the shock-it’s size, it’s colour, etc. Indeed, it felt like it was as big as my world, that it included everything in my world, and was a burden the size of my world.
I have to digress here. As our processing took place over the space of a few months, life happened too, between sessions.
Interestingly, I noticed that much of that drama taking place in my life seemed to be directly related to what we were running! How cool was that?
It was like life kept handing me more and more triggers, tossing me back into that other lifetime. I began to see how I had been living though all this suffering, attempting to deal with life from this viewpoint of suffering. In short, it seemed that my whole life situation now might be a direct outcome of the trauma from my last life. Who can you tell this to apart from your processor?!
Between sessions, especially when we would have no processing for a week or more, it felt like I was walking around on emotional eggshells, all this grief and emotion sitting just under the surface.
Not a bad thing, however. I say that because I began to also see how I had adopted an entire persona of stoicism in order to deal with my emotions. I had always thought that I had managed quite well despite a rough childhood, for instance. Then it began dawning on me that exactly the opposite was true. I hadn’t escaped unscathed. Not at all.
Quite a startling revelation that was, occurring outside of session while writing a journal describing my feelings.
So things were percolating, unraveling. Charge was peeling off in layers, like an onion.
And again, each session, I would flip into that experience of shock and grief, thinking that it was never-ending. Until one morning I tried to describe exactly what personality I had become through that experience-the personality I would slip into every time I had a big loss, or a major falling out with someone. And it was eerie. And nasty. I was discovering I could really look at myself for the first time. At my worst, projected cold, harsh, silent, uncompromisingly rigid and unbending, cruel, self-righteous, all-encompassing and vengefully dismissive disdain. Ugh.
The self-righteous part kind of clued me in. This was beginning to sound curiously like a service facsimile. Could I be using this suffering as a make wrong, make myself right, etc. kind of thing?
The very next session, again, I went right into revivification upon hearing “return to the moment of shock”. But this time, it was short, and it seemed like I bounced right out of it. Upon hearing the command again, I couldn’t contact the shock at all.
Surprised, and a little curious, I offered that it seemed like something had blown. Not something major, but something had changed, somehow. It was like a string to a large balloon had been cut, and something was floating away.
It seemed unreal that something so huge and so significant could just disappear without the least of fanfares.
Then, quite suddenly, my body started to hyperventilate. Then this truly bizarre sensation began moving over and through me. I was stunned – I couldn’t figure out what was happening. And happening it was!
I started to laugh. And I began laughing harder and harder. It occurred to me that you may not know that I was laughing this time and not crying, as, to me at least, it sounded much the same ☺
So I managed to gasp out to you that I was laughing, but at what I didn’t know (!) Truly, it wasn’t funny, but I was laughing so hard my stomach was hurting. That was weird!
But then I began to see that it was relief. It was the last vestiges of that which I had been holding onto that had been cut. All that shock, that pain and suffering, was now dissipating and I was in the throes of incredible relief and release.
I was going wow wow wow in my head! And I started moving up and out, and away.
I kept thinking how unique it was that so much of the experience was happening before the realizations. Usually, it works the opposite. I have a realization and THEN I start experiencing the release. This time it was all in reverse. How wild is that?!
And all the time I was laughing harder than I have ever laughed in my life-with the exception of one other time I won’t go into here, LOL!
And I began to see how I HAD used this suffering as a make wrong. It was like I wanted others to know and understand how much I was suffering and if they didn’t, then I would try to make them suffer as I did. I mean, why should I be the only one suffering? LOL!
And of course, THEN, I found this to be uproariously hilarious.
Yes, I could see how people everywhere in their suffering used exactly this.
So on some level, I was holding onto this as a survival thing. It was the cutting of that last tie that ended the need to keep on holding onto this any longer.
And then, of course, more and more cognitions kept coming.
I could see how all that crying was simply the process of arriving at viewing the incident in its entirety, at which point it vanished. As-is-ness at work. It was such a validation of the whole process, of the axioms.
And then I got all gushy with appreciation and the tears came again. But not bad ones, just tears at the magnitude and profundity of my experience.
I was releasing all my suffering. It was not that I was released from suffering. I was releasing suffering from me!
I had been holding onto that all my life!
I could see suffering from a completely different perspective.
And I realized that this was my purpose in coming into Scientology in the first place. I wanted to help people in their suffering. I was not such a bad guy at all☺. And of course, I came in too because I wanted relief from MY suffering.
This is what I meant when I said I have handled what I came into Scientology to handle.
On the Grades Chart is says about moving out of fixed conditions as a state on Grade IV, I believe. Grade IV has to do with Service Facsimiles. How apt.
So I have a new state now….moving out of fixed conditions, see?
I listed tons more wins from this in my last email to you, but this is my summary.
Oh yes, the other thing is I feel this profound sense of appreciation for you and for what you are doing.
And of course, one of my goals in processing was to revitalize my desire to work with others, to help them in the same way I have been helped. I have that too, now.
All this took place via Skype, over a period of a few months (but about 2 intensives-24 hours-in total) That’s it. No wasted time. No bogging down in endless repair actions, endless ruds, etc etc. It’s been a joy throughout. And what a bargain!
Take this success story and do anything you want with it☺
It’s been just so great.
You’ve been wonderful.
DK wanted to share this after today’s session:
Just want to say “Thanx” for a great session. But the processing is continuing…
I wanted to add to my wins and say that it feels as though I am getting False Data Stripping on the subject of Life. More specifically, my life. This is very definitely the most interesting journey that I have ever been on. And the most self-discovery I have ever made. I am really getting to know who I really am and can actually BE that person. There is even more to this that has not surfaced yet, I will let you know when it does.
The fact that I can now actually grant myself beingness is a real turning point for me. Especially since I now realize that I have never been able to do that before. But I can only see that now that I can grant beingness to myself.
Thanks for all you do,
JM just had a introductory session with me yesterday. He has had auditing sessions before, but this was his first session with me. He’s now signed on for more processing, and had this to say today:
“Here are some wins that I have had with Dex…
One thing that I now have is that I have the feeling that I can make it in life. Although I am not totally there yet, I would say that just knowing that I can cope and handle whatever comes my way is a big stabilizing feeling. For the longest time I have been being quite “conservative” with life. Afraid to really stick my neck out there, as if I might get “hit” somehow. Now I am much more willing to stand out and be counted. To let others know who I am and what I stand for. I can better hold my position, because I am doing it as me, not some or other identity or beingness. It is a really good feeling inside to know that I am not always wrong and if I am, I can correct it. I don’t need to beat myself up about it anymore. I am also able to let others be right.
There is a very interesting benefit that I have never gotten from any other auditing. That is that I now feel that I have much more of an understanding of life and me, that I have never had before. I am not quite sure exactly what that is all about, but will say that my certainty of life and who I really am is much greater. I am OK with being me. I am sure that I am walking taller and with more certainty that I have in a long time. I feel like I am recovering my personal integrity. WOW! That is huge.
This is not that same old auditing that was available elsewhere. This is real understanding and somehow it gets imparted from auditor to PC. During the session I was totally aware that I was not effect of the auditing like in other auditing. I was actually at cause. I was “running my session.”
There is one other thing I noticed, and that is that I have built barriers up around me, in order to somehow protect myself from something (not sure what), but inevitably, it has acted to limit my success in life and business. This is an extremely interesting revelation. I have never seen this before. But now I see that I have been limiting and actually stopping my own success. Sort of like, “the solution to a problem has now become the problem.” Guess I just need to find the original problem, huh?
I think the big win here is that I am actually discovering who I really am and the “armor” that I have surrounded myself in is being peeled away. A chunk here and a chunk there. What is interesting is that even a day after session I can still feel that “armor” falling to the wayside, little bits at a time. I am sure more will be falling away tomorrow.
I am totally certain that I am now on the right track to where I want to arrive.”