One of my current PC’s was still “percolating” with changes and realizations 2 weeks after their session, experiencing and enjoying, and so not yet ready to continue with auditing. Today, E.C.’s universe settled down from all the changing and realigning, and E.C. was able to find the words for this latest session experience, and the changes thereof:
“I feel very open and fresh, there has been so much as-ised in my universe, and there is very little that bothers me.
If there is something that bothers me, it’s no longer in the sense that I sit there and ponder about it, but its rather a rational emotion and I don’t hang on it or linger on it for a long time.
When people speak to me, I don’t have facsimilies coming in, although I do have pictures that I can create on the subject that anyone may discuss with me. I feel free of restimulation and I find myself in a place where nothing really bothers me much; I don’t care to take part in to people’s BS or any other games that I don’t consider to be best for all of my dynamics. I just don’t care to feed the fire, I’ve lost interest in that.
I find myself operating on “what’s true for you is true for you”, without feeling any need to evaluate or invalidate. I feel totally at cause! A thetan operates by choice, what you get is what you choose!
This is true!
Life is a journey. I believe that life is all about creating, and that creating has no limits or boundaries. I believe that a being is capable of achieving anything he truly wants. Unfortunately, my observation has been that the ability to create has come to a screeching halt for many, and that many of us live in darkness. I’ve known and observed the adherents of numerous religions, and experienced several of these for myself. It seems to me that people tend to follow the leading voice of a religion and find comfort and security in being told what to do, and that few of us stand up and think for ourselves.
I’m saying these things here to share my reality, and my experiences and observations with all; I’ve never been one to blindly accept, uninspected, the things I was told by my parents, friends or churches. I wanted something more. I always wanted to explore my abilities and the possibilities in my life; really, I just wanted to create for myself a better state of beingness, and come to understand who I am.
Not too long ago, I began experiencing auditing sessions with Dex, not knowing what to really expect. To my surprise, I fell in love with the fact that I was getting a ton of wins. Problems that I have been audited on before by other auditors suddenly began disappearing, my raging anger and bypassed charge lessening greatly; I mean, I am getting quick results here, guys!
I had been accustomed to worrying about what others are doing, and now, suddenly, I no longer care so much to sit and ponder, and investigate; now I find me thinking for myself. I had been feeling like I was dragging my meat bag (body) around places; suddenly I am skipping through the store aisles as if I were a feather floating through the air, and seeing that I as a being am ahead of the MEST universe and everything else is behind me. From having facsimiles and thoughts of “what if”, I find myself mentally unencumbered and at total peace, without need to ponder or question things, and being simply OK with what is, enjoying myself for who I am and where I am. From having a sour disposition to bursting out with laughter, and at the most interesting and random things, such as when I’m driving. Can you imagine driving and laughing your ass off while you have other drivers looking at you and wondering what the hell you’re laughing at? I think you catch my drift! I no longer care about what people have to say to me about others or if they try to convince me to do things a certain way; I think for myself and I follow my own ways, what is real and true to me, and that is just what I will continue to do.
I went with Dex, because he grants me so much beingness, he listens and understands. He is supportive of other auditors and does not evaluate or speak badly of other auditors or PCs. I like Dex, because he does not put up with BS and confronts matters right on the spot. I continue with Dex because I am having so many wins. I’m getting great results from his auditing of me. I strongly believe that this is what it’s all about, that I am winning, I’m achieving my goals for my auditing, and I am expending on all my dynamics. When all is said and done, I believe that it’s all about ARC, and my experience has been that Dex has awesome ARC.
I suppose I should jump in with some information. I’m Christof, and I’m pretty new. Recently I got in touch with someone, had an auditor recommended, and started. (Started a bit faster than I was expecting!)
I’m working with Dexter, and I have to say that I’ve had some pretty amazing results in the past few weeks alone. A lot of it doesn’t describe well, but I can definitely say my ARC is up all around me, and with my family it’s been very significant.
I’ve been blown away a few times on havingness, and I’m much more comfortable in my environment.
Hopefully, I’ll get through to some version of Clear and train on auditing through the Freezone.
Howdy to all, and thanks to Dex! July 1, 2011
(Deb responded to my posted offer to help anyone in need, regardless of ability to pay. I gave her a session, and she sent me several messages over the next few days, as she continued to have realizations, her universe realigning over that time. This is what Deb had to say)
“It was hard to find words directly after session, it had to settle a bit. This session, my attention went from the room, bang, to my body, which I have been ignoring. I found a lot of thoughts about it, like it’s too old to attract a husband and I am lonely. There were other electronic things that happened, I don’t know how to describe them.
I found some decisions I made that shouldn’t be there. Actually so many thoughts went whoosh so fast, I didn’t catch them all, but I keyed out. The space changed, my kids art work popped out, with a cheerful emotion.
I as-ised some other thoughts that were there. It goes too fast sometimes. The artwork popped out from the walls. Grief came up. A lower back somatic turned on and blew off.
I have been confused since I quit the official gulag (I wont call it a church). I just got some faith back with the tech with this session. I have been upset because I lost my church. I lost what I thought it should be, that I could never find it again.
More thoughts are happening, and more grief is falling off. I found I have to change things. I want to surround myself with people who aren’t antagonistic to the tech. I realized that I had started to sound antagonistic myself.
I realized that I had been suicidal for years, I remembered driving, and wishing the car would fall over the cliff, this has been ‘underneath’ in my universe for a while. Now I’m feeling better. Not so hopeless. I have been too depressed, with a terrible feeling of hopelessness.
It’s all starting to pull together. I will keep writing these things down, as more things are rolling off. After session, I just wanted to run next door to the park and take a walk. Today I walked for hours. The lightening looked different today, actually the earth felt different under my feet!
Thank you, Dex!
Auditor: Dexter Gelfand
I’m particularly proud of this one. Rehabbed me as a case cracking auditor, brought back for me what I felt back in my CoS days, when I reveled in taking on the cases that others hadn’t succeeded to change. This was such a situation. I am fully back and better than ever as an auditor, and case programmer!
Today I got a new awareness on anchor points. I saw that instead of just points that define a room or building or such that they can be a stuck point on the track, but not just some objective point. They have content, anything from charge, pain, love, heavy upset, thoughts, postulates, considerations, feelings, emotions, sensations, you name it. This is another way to describe a stuck point on the track, or a heavily charged incident.
I found an anchor with so much in it, it was a mock up of a being and all the mega ARC it represented. And the being had its own anchor point there as well, and still may. I have dropped my anchor / stuck viewpoint there, which was somewhere out there in the universe. In the moment of releasing it, I felt naked, disoriented and that it was okay to be myself and be off on my own.
Sometimes you just don’t want to let something go, it’s a problem in havingness, but something can be so desired, wanted and loved that one can lose sight of it being a game, and ARC itself becomes a trap. But no matter what game is played, for me ARC with fellow beings and sharing experiences is senior to the game, although some games are more fun than others. This old anchor point was the game of being on an eon long vacation of traveling around the universe and seeing the sites with someone I that shared very high mutual ARC. That is hard to let go of. How could I go it alone? I’m better oriented into PT and have a nice ease of intention in pursuit of my goals.
It’s a constant reaching to unravel one’s case. Day by day, process by process. I feel very good with Dex as my auditor, and feel great working with him to break through my case to higher and higher levels.
Auditor: Dexter Gelfand
I have recently received Power and Power Plus.
Upon doing the 3rd step on Power Plus today, I spotted and as-ised the greatest ( for me ) overt of my entire existence.
The negation of “myself”, and the results since then denying “me” to exist, using all types of other mechanisms to confront life with, instead of just being me. The altering of self, to “fit” in with societies, and all kinds of strata of life, are seemingly endless. But the greatest feeling is that I dont have to do that anymore. This win being posted is proof-part or that change.
My auditor on this action is Dexter, and he’s doing a very effective and great job at running me on power ( this is not my first time receiving power, nor delivering it, I also delivered it to Dexter and 15 other cases in the last 3 months).
Thanks to you Dex, (I told you you could do it!).
My personal Wish is that all that have case issues, find yourself a good auditor who can deliver Power and get at it, your probably missing out on something, at least I and other were, And I have been audited by some awesome auditors over the years.
The wins of Power are VERY comparable to the L’s.
In my solo session today, I had what was for me a transcendent increase in understanding of pan-determinism and individuation, which of course is the opposite of pan-determinism and also, I’ve come to realize, the opposite of, or the moving away from, the state of OT.
Individuation is the abandonment of viewpoint, and thus the withdrawal of beingness and responsibility. Acting harmfully toward another or others must be preceded by an individuation from those beingnesses, or viewpoints, which is individuation. If one hasn’t withdrawn from a beingness, then to harm that beingness would be to harm oneself, which is, of course antipathetic to one’s basic urge to survive, experience more pleasure, and less pain.
At the moment of realization, I felt a sense of all of my own suppression of my connections to those terminals I’ve separated from drop away, and I felt a renewed interest and willingness to experience those beingnesses appreciate them and thus be in ARC. Before this, I was troubled by the fact of having severed ties to past terminals, and willingly maintaining that refusal to connect, and I didn’t know how to resolve that. I have thus attained a new and higher level of being whole on my dynamics. It is a very joyful state!
I just had a major gain in a solo auditing session as part of my solo course, part B. I became completely able to be without need to identify myself as anything other than simply me, free of fixed attitudes or mannerisms, able to be nothing- literally, no-thing. Identity is a MEST symbol, a way of being recognized as “something” in the material world, or MEST universe. It is a limitation to one fixed viewpoint within the MEST universe, and it springs from the obsessive need to be recognized as being something, and the fear of being nothing (see “The Story of a Thetan”)- no-thing, as in the definition of a static, I have achieved recognition of being a static. Identity limits and categorizes a being. Free of a fixed viewpoint for identification purposes, I am free to assume all views or no views. Continue reading
I would like to share with you my fantastic wins on my recently completed Power Processing. Over the course of this action there was not a single day in which I didn’t have at least one floating TA. My space is totally changed, freed up and direct, and I can extend my anchor points, and thus my space, to encompass any area at will, effortlessly. Every person I have spoken with since immediately notices the difference in me.
It is difficult to describe without using the words “power”, or powerful, but I can tell you this-there isn’t much I can’t accomplish, if anything. Situations that, before this auditing, reeked of counter-intention and stops, now give way to my effortless intention without resistance. I’m so much freer from dramatization, and pessimism no longer exists. I can, and I will, be creating big effects. Just watch me. Continue reading